To read or not to read……

You know, sometimes I am faced with a terrible dilemma.

Reading a book which I am not enjoying at all after the first 30-50 pages…..

What to do?

I am dying to put it away and go to the next one.

I am consumed with guilt for not finishing the book.

I am dreading the moment when I have to pick up the book at bed time.

I am scared I will be off reading if I continue to turn page after page out of a sheer duty to complete the book.

But now……. I think I have matured.

I quietly, quickly, before any guilt crowds my mind and heart, just put the book away immediately, pick up another and start afresh.

I know, that I hate my list of ‘currently reading’ increases.

I know there is a small corner of my mind saying. “you did not try hard enough.”

I know guilt will raises its ugly head, at times, to overwhelm me.

But I don’t have a choice, do I?

What do you do?